....and a cow named defeat

The death of a legend

2011-03-14T11:29:00.001-07:00

This blog is turrible turrible turrible. Donezo.

Bleeding on the outside

2011-03-14T09:55:00.000-07:00

Pretty eventful weekend. Grilling, shopping, movies, bouldering, driving, bonfire, s'mores, s'more s'mores(couldn't resist), poison ivy?, shark attack to the face and according to WebMD I now have the flu, tetanus or rabies. The site didn't say that I only had one of the three... Come to think of it I could have acquired all three from this one weekend!

I'm not patient.

I'm getting stir crazy. I got house fever after owning my own in Texas and now I want to have my own house and yard again. I'm feelin cooped up.

Jake's on a mission. That's great. I'm proud of him. Envious as well. Not serving has been my greatest regret. It still haunts my thoughts on a regular basis. He has been out over 6 months now. Time has gone by so fast.

I'm 24. That's nuts. Where does the time go?

I need to move on.

I'm not patient.

I want some food.

Extreme motivation skillz

2011-03-01T12:33:00.000-08:00

...or lack there of

So I am about half way through Day 1 of my 7 day all fruit/veggie diet. I'm not gonna make it. A hamburger, chicken or big juicy steak sound delicious right now.

From what I have read there are dozens of health benefits to the detox diet and its suppose to help people with IBS as well.

The diet mainly consists of raw fruits/veggies, raw nuts(except peanuts), rice products and 100% juice that doesn't have other things in it.

It is recommended by most places to do it for a week but many others said as long as you do it for over 9 meals it will help. That's only 3 days. I want to do it for a whole week but I may not make it through the weekend of delicious foods and snacks...

Perpetually achieving greater depths of craziness

2011-03-01T03:35:00.000-08:00

I feel like such a loon. No reason in particular, just do.

I get paranoid. Mostly about things I think normal people get paranoid about ie money, relationships, health, losing super powers, etc. The list goes on.

I'm impatient. I'm not very good at waiting. I'm not referring to waiting for a friend at a restaurant or waiting in line at the grocery store but waiting. Don't know how to explain it. I'm not good at waiting when there is a controllable variable in between me and what I am waiting on. I'd just as soon not wait once I know something is going to happen.

I'm not very good at self analysis.

I think too much.

I think things into being a bigger deal than they are.

Blarg. Dumb.

Learning In Slow Motion

2011-02-16T07:21:00.000-08:00

So... where do I begin? How do I start something I don't have together yet? I still have reservations about this whole spewing my life across the internet for the world to read. Fortunately for me I have been fairly successful at preventing people from discovering this. Those who have stay only long enough to read my warnings that there is nothing worth sticking around for, read on for a sentence or two, come to the brutal realization that the warnings were valid and never return. *whoa tangent* Back to the matter at hand -- where do I begin?

Dear Diary,

Oh where to begin. No... Nope we're past that.

I have spent a great amount of time lately thinking about life. Life in general but more specifically my life and the last several years of it. When you are growing up you have a plan. You have it all figured out. You know it all and you know how it is going to work out. You know where you are going to be at 24 and you know what you will have accomplished at that point. You have a list of things that you confidently say "THAT will never happen to me" and judge those who are there. As a kid you know where you are going to be and what is best for you.

Then, I knew it all.

Unfortunately for all parties involved I have gotten serially dumber ever since. Unfortunate that is unless the saying that 'the more you know the less you know' is true. If it is true then surely the inverse is true as well; the less you know the more you know. If that is the case I am a genius! Which takes us back to the saying that the more you know the less you know. *queue infinite loop*

They say the wise learn from others mistakes. Doesn't apply.

If the wise learn from others mistakes then normal people must learn from their own. Doesn't apply.

So what does that make those of us who fall into a third category? Those of us who spend nearly a decade learning something that countless numbers before us have learned and warned us of. All that time spent--wasted--just to learn something that could have been discovered in moments spent in conversation with them. Why? Pride? Arrogance? Plain stupidity? I think a combination of all of those... prigantity. New word. Describes those of us who fall into the third category. I have never been happier than I have been since I started to ask those in the position to help for advice. It's unfortunate that it has taken a quarter of a century for me to learn that parents really do know what they are talking about the majority of the time.

One thing I have managed to learn. I know nothing. When I start to think I do, I realize that in reality I don't. One thing I do know--life goes on. We can't control it. No part of it. We can't control what happens to us tomorrow. We can't control time. Yesterday is gone and tomorrow may never come. Happiness is created, found in the present. Buddha said "Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment." It is so easy to look forward to tomorrow, to the next holiday, the next vacation but its only once we can learn to enjoy life everyday that we can really be happy.

We can't control how we are treated by those around us. We can't control what they do, feel or want. We can't make someone do the right thing. We can't make someone love us. No matter how hard we try we can't make someone else happy. What we can control is ourselves. We can control our happiness, we can control what we do in response to our surroundings and we can control how we treat those who are important to us regardless of the way they act or treat us.

There is a story my dad used to tell me that relates. I can't remember all the details but the story roughly goes that there were these two boys. One was locked in a room with all the toys he could ever want. The other was locked in a 4' x 8' horse stable. They were left for a few hours and when the came back to check on them the boy with the toys had found dozens of things to be unhappy about. The boy in the horse stable was vigorously shoveling away the horse manure while cheerfully whistling with a grin on his face. When they asked him what he was doing he said "with all this horse manure there has got to be a pony here somewhere!"

I am about 99% positive that there is no one in existence who is truly that happy but the lesson is still there. We can control our happiness. Our surroundings don't control us unless we allow them to.

I am happy.

I could go on but shouldn't seeing as I have already spewed way too much useless ramblings all over the internet, subjecting millions of innocents to it.

Find happiness. Find happiness so others can share theirs with you.

2011-02-14T08:43:00.001-08:00

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I Eat Way Too Much

2011-02-11T08:03:00.000-08:00

It's not my fault!! What am I to do when I am constantly blasted with flashy, enticing advertisements married up with a catchy jingle? For example:

On top of that it's so convenient and cheap to eat excessive amounts of unhealthy food. Grabbing a bag of chips is quicker and easier than making a salad. Drive through at McDonalds is cheaper than Subway. What's pathetic is the fact I wouldn't mind paying the extra for Subway if it had a drive thru... heaven forbid I have to get out of my car, walk in and burn off 3 of those several hundred calories I am going to be consuming.

Portions are a problem too. Growing up we are taught to finish all of the food on our plates since there are starving kids in third world countries. So from birth we are programmed to gorge ourselves on food and that programming sticks with us our whole lives. Fast food doesn't help by providing us with the option to "Super Size" portions that are already unhealthily large.

Plus, food is just good. I love food. I refuse to acknowledge the irony of me writing this while eating on my second lunch break of the day...

If a blog post is posted on the internet and no one is there to read it....

2011-02-02T12:02:00.000-08:00

...does it still make a sound?

Just another of those questions that we will never know the answer to. Like 'will I ever be able to update a blog more often than once every 2 years?' We may never know but here goes nothing.

What are you suppose to write about in a blog? About something that interests you? Something you feel will interest others? About your life if it falls into one of those categories? I feel that me updating a blog will only provide documented proof of just how dull and uninteresting my life really is.

Take for instant a blog post about blog posts. Lame right? Or worse... a blog post about how lame it is to blog about blog posts. *queue infinite loop*

Before this spirals completely out of control let me encourage you to stop reading. Seriously! There are literally millions of things you could be reading instead that if nothing else won't potentially cause some type of permanent mental decay. You could always check out my other blog www.forcatech.com it at least is quazi-informative...

This went even worse than expected. The end?

Blog to Come to an End--Soon to Be Named Defeat

2009-07-09T13:00:00.000-07:00

Well... just as I thought, I never remember to post about anything. This blog has been a big time fail.

I just have a hard time writing unless I have something that I find interesting to write about... unfortunately myself doesn't fall into that category so--at least for the time being--I am throwing in the towel on this one.

However, in preparation for our new company I have started a new tech blog about random things that interest me. I may just have this blog auto forwarded to my other one eventually... once all 3 of your weirdo's that check this blog see that I am admitting defeat.

Anywho! Skip on over to http://www.forcatech.com/blog/ to check out my tech blog!

...and farewell blogger...

2009-04-23T21:52:00.000-07:00

Whoo hoo!

Ok, been way too long since my last post!

Since our last thrilling adventure I have moved to Provo and started a new job! I am working for a VoIP phone company that targets businesses. I am in the Tech support dept and really enjoy the atmosphere and people I work with!

Several friends and I are brainstorming for new website/business ideas, we are most likely going to begin some big and exciting changes at http://www.wadzoo.com and http://pc.wadzoo.com. I think the plan is to sell www.romshq.com to the highest offer we get, I am tired of maintaining it and it is not a site I wanted to have long term anyways.

I was thinking we could get a funny sounding domain name, thousands and thousands of servers and have a search engine! We would just be a search engine at first that would be simple with no ads. People would love us and begin using us alot and then little by little we would begin sneaking an ad here and adding a service here. Before everyone knew it we would take over the world... wide web.

Everyone shot down my idea saying that it would never work.

I will continue brainstorming...

and it snows....

2008-12-17T06:46:00.000-08:00

got up around 4 this morning so that i could give my neighbors a ride to the airport. was surprised to see another 2 or so inches of snow on the ground. the grounds crew went through here at about 6 to shovel up all the sidewalks. now, an hour later there is a fresh inch covering all their hard earned sidewalks.

...about 7 days now since it started snowing. pretty intense! there has been snow on the ground never since. i am finally getting used to the idea of driving on roads with snow on them. everyone here acts like it is totally normal. what is wrong with you idaho? the roads had about 1-3 inches of snow packed down on them and then about 8-9 inches everywhere else and i heard someone say something about hoping that the roads are in this good of shape all winter... !?!?!

anywho, school is out finally. took my last final last friday and am glad that i am not going to have to go on campus next semester. i am going to be working full time and am going to devote some real time to the website.

i was looking at different stuff to help the site out and was surprised at what the most rom and emulator related searches were. the top three searches related to roms are gamecube roms, gameshark rom codes and digimon world roms. what the heck? i figured that most people would be searching for things like download ps2 roms, snes roms, playstation 2 roms, gba roms, nds roms, gameboy emulators, n64 roms, ps2 roms and nes roms. anyways, i will be working on improving peoples ability to find our archive of games over the next few weeks. i am not sure whether or not to use www.romshq.com or just romshq.com but that is something else i can look into and figure out over the next few weeks.

we will also be starting our romshq directory with a list of all the top rom websites out there. there are a few like this already but none that are garbage. we should be able to make one that is much more usable than the others.

Snow!

2008-12-10T04:04:00.000-08:00

Couldn't believe it! The weather hadn't really said anything about it. No neighbors had mentioned it. Had spent some time with some friends on Sunday night and never heard a word. Still, when I woke up on Monday morning 3 inches of snow on the ground! Still a few inches here and there but the streets are clear for the most part.

Finally some snow! Honestly, second week of December and all we have gotten is a few light snows?

The cow named defeat

2008-12-06T19:54:00.001-08:00

Here is the story. I had gotten some new camping stuff and was itching to test it out. So I asked a friend where some good places to go camping around here. I got some directions that were kind of difficult to follow at best. After hours of searching for this fabled camping spot I finally gave up since it was starting to get dark and cold.

Instead of heading home I decided to just drive down one of the random dirt roads and set up camp in the middle of some random field.

Found a good spot, setup my tent and cooked my dinner on my new stove which I was really impressed with for being as small as my cell phone when folded up! After sitting around the camp fire and playing a few songs on the guitar I decided to go to bed.

Climbed in the tent and got in my icy sleeping bag! I am not sure how cold it was but the low for the night was suppose to be 15 and it felt twice as cold as that already. The new sleeping bag did great and I was able to get warm pretty quickly and drifted off to sleep.

A little over 3 hours later I woke up to what I thought was either a car running over me, an avalanche or the sky falling. Turns out it was none of those! I don't know if it was the loud noise of my tent being torn down or the bitter cold of the frozen inner walls of the tent hitting my face but I woke up so startled and confused that I unzipped and shot out of my tent faster than I really think is physically possible at which point I realized a herd of cattle was tromping through my camp! One in particular had decided that my tent looked like a nice sagebrush to run through and so that is what he did! As I turned on my flashlight and looked at my collapsed tent noticing the dirty hoof print on it right to the left of where my legs were I realized what an epic defeat my camping trip just became.

It was at this moment, when all of this was going through my head that I turned my light and attention to the cow that had performed this conquering act just as he stopped and turned to look at me mockingly I said, "You will forever be known as the cow named defeat".

Great story I know.

Turkey Day '08

2008-12-04T20:21:00.001-08:00

Lots of fun. Went south for Thanksgiving with my Aunt Celia and all of her family. Jake and Stephanie came too and we ate lots and lots of good food. I must admit I was looking forward to that good food for several weeks! Got to spend a few days there and play some Rock Band with the cousins and watch lots of movies in the massive home theater!

It was the Nintendo Wii version of rock band and playing it there reminded me of when we would play their old NES and SNES in the bonus room of their old house. They just don't make games like those anymore.

Here goes nothing....

2008-12-04T00:15:00.000-08:00

First things first. I would like to thank everyone who helped me to get here. My parents, grand-parents, great grand-parents, great great grand-parents, *infinity*, my friend Eric from church who told me blogging isn't so bad, and most importantly the cow named defeat.

Long ago I heard about this whole blog thing. Have been familiar with it. Just have never really had something interesting to say and so to spare myself the waste of time and to prevent the 3 psycho's that might happen to stumble upon this miraculous blog from becoming obsessed with my life and hating their own and its lack of similarity to mine... i haven't blogged.

So now that I have explained why I haven't lets blog!

...I think thats enough for today.

**Oh and this is not the cow named defeat, but this one was seen, defeated, only 8 hours before the cow named defeat was seen.... but thats for another day